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I've been married to my wife for a total of 23 years now. I was 23 when we first met, she was 21. Both of us are what I'd call sexually adventurous. With that being said there has been no infidelity on my part, and trusting her I don't believe on her part either. As the years have gone by I have found that my fantasies always involve her. I can only speak for me but she's the only one I think about. I see an attractive woman go by and my thoughts is always she's hot but never towards any ideas of what her and I would look like in a sexual encounter, crazy as that sounds. I always and only have my wife in mind for that. I think of different scenarios, environments, etc but it's always with my wife. Recently my wife has opened up to me that her fantasies involve other people, doctors, strangers, rock stars, etc, which to be honest hurt quite a bit to hear. She fantasizes about people I'll never be. I don't doubt her loyalty to me and I didn't make a big deal about it because I know everybody thinks in their own way, but to say it wasn't hard to hear would be false. It has put my self esteem and the picture of who I thought I was to her in question. What it has done was make me feel inadequate. I get hit on a lot, Im 6'2, 200 pounds and not to sound like a braggart but I think I'd be referred to as handsome. I'm a firefighter, so I know with that title comes some accolades as well so I don't feel like I'm not validated in my own life. It's just very hard to hear the woman you love tell you she has desires that don't involve you when all my desires only involve her. Like I said I haven't shamed her for it or even told her that it was hurtful to hear because I want her to be honest and not embarrassed for opening up to me, it's just something I have to figure out a way to digest and move on. I guess my question would be why does society tell both men and women to look elsewhere to have desires met when if you're truly in love why can't that be enough? I guess I'm old fashioned that way. Id love to hear some feedback if you'd be kind enough to share it with me.